Thank you for your reminder that even meditation teachers, as the Buddha himself, require and deserve support as do all beings.

Keeping in mind I am a very new begginer, here is something to start you on your journey.

The book I’m read right now suggests counting your breaths to 4, for an easy beginer thing to do. Essentially you close your eyes, breath in and out 1, in and out 2, in and out 3, in and out 4, and in and out 1 again etc.
The trick is to ONLY think about that, to not let yourself think of anything else, to allow your mind to do only 1 single task for 10 minutes or whatever you can manage.
Now both the book, and I, stress that it is waaaaaaayyyyyy harder than it sounds, the book says you probably wont be able to go for more than a second or 2 when you first start, I couldn’t even go for a single second! It seems my brain needs something more complicated to occupy itself while I train it to be capable of the much more difficult “simpler” way.

So I’ve been trying to come up with ways to help ease my mind into it through more “complicated” methods until I’m good enough to do the simpler ones, and so far, here are a few of my ideas.

Counting small objects:
I’m going to try to track down something that is small enough to keep alot of them together in a bag or box or bowl, but big enough to not be able to lose one while counting, because it will mess up the goal. And so what the goal is, is to count the hundreds of *somethings* unaided, relying only on consentration, and each time I get to the end, writing down the number, and then doing it again, and again, until every single time I count it, I get the exact same number each time, for maybe 10 times, to know that I managed to stay focused enough not to lose count.

And then trying to find something that uses less and less brain power, until I am able to be alone with my mind and have at least a chance of succeding.

Also, I’m going to keep a notebook with me, and any time a “pay attention to me now, I’m important” thought pops into my head that can wait for at least 15ish minutes to deal with (which most can) I’ll give that thought to the notebook to hold onto, so my mind doesn’t have to carry it for a while, so I can try to let it go, and get back to my task.

So for now, while you are still searching the net, try finding a simple task to focus all of your mind on for a few minutes a day, trying not to let anything else enter your mind during that time. It really is alot more complicated than it sounds, but it’s very eye opening to the amount of stress that is constantly buzzing in your mind for attention.

Also, there are alot of free tips here, and if you go to google books, you can find some books that you can preveiw, and that way if you do decide to buy a book, you can make a more informed decision, and amazon has used books for really cheap sometimes, you’ll just have to shop around a bit.

Unfortunately I’m litterally just starting on my search myself, and that’s all I can suggest… other than one thing, try not to frame your requests with a tone of insult next time and you may recieve more help, as they say, you get more flys with honey than vingar.

Good luck on your search, and remember to think for yourself, if something seems off it probably is.