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Why meditation isn’t the main thing in my life

mandalaGiven that I’m a meditation teacher and the author of a good number of books and audiobooks on meditation, you might think that meditation should be the central thing in my life. But — and this is something I only just realized — it’s not.

I’ve carried around, not very consciously, the idea that meditation should be the most important, the most central, thing in my life. And I suspect that this mostly unconscious idea has led to inner conflict and resistance. Certainly, when I realized just the other day that meditation wasn’t and shouldn’t be the central thing in my life, I felt unburdened. I felt lighter, freer, and clearer. The notion that meditation should be the central thing in my life was something that had been weighing me down.

It’s not that I don’t take meditation seriously. I meditate every day. It’s just what I do. It’s part of who I am. To use a common, but useful, analogy, brushing my teeth isn’t the most important part of my life, but I make sure I do it at least twice each day.

What is the most important thing in my life? What brings me the most happiness and gives me the sense that my life is being spent in a meaningful way is seeing people grow and become happier. Having a hand in that process is deeply fulfilling. So basically helping people is the central thing in my life.

But even that’s a bit of a simplification. I have a drive to become awakened, or enlightened. Or at least I have a drive to seek a meaningful way of living that maximizes my sense of happiness and peace and that minimizes the amount of unnecessary suffering I experience. That’s my quest. And it just so happens that the Buddhist goal of spiritual awakening and the Buddhist path to awakening match up with my own goal. That’s not surprising, since the whole Buddhist path is about ending suffering and finding peace.

I sometimes talk about my quest (and always think about it) as wanting to know the mind of the Buddha. Now that might sound a little selfish, or self-centered, but there’s another factor. It turns out that if I want to maximize my happiness, minimize the amount of unnecessary suffering I experience, experience more peace, and feel that I’m living life meaningfully, then I need to help others.

I can’t exactly explain why. You can call it “interconnectedness” if you want. You can talk about it in terms of non-duality. But fundamentally, helping others to move toward awakening (whether or not they’re aware that’s where they’re headed) seems to be inseparable from my own movement toward enlightenment. This is what the Mahāyāna called mahākaruṇā, or great compassion, in which we aim to guide all beings to the happiness of awakening. I believe this is what the earlier Buddhist tradition also called upekkhā, the fourth brahmavihāra. Everyone else is going to tell you that upekkhā is “equanimity,” but the root of the word upekkhā suggests that it originally meant “to watch over closely” and its place as the pinnacle of the brahmavihāras convinces me that upekkhā and mahākaruṇā are the same thing.

There’s another way you can express all this, which is to say that the Buddha (enlightenment, awakening, living an awakened life) is at the center of my life. And if I think of my life as a maṇḍala — a symbolic arrangement of values — then the Buddha is at the center of my maṇḍala.

Ideally, I’d like everything else in my life to relate to and be supportive of the center. That’s far from being the case: I have anger and craving and any number of bad habits that represent movements away from the center. But that’s what practice is about. It helps us to “want one thing.”

Meditation is just a support — albeit a crucial one — to the goal of getting myself and all beings to awakening: my “one thing.” It can never be, never has been, and never should be the most important thing in my life, even though it’s a crucial practice.

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Bodhipaksa is a Buddhist practitioner and teacher, a member of the Triratna Buddhist Order, and a published author. He founded Wildmind in 2001. Bodhipaksa has published many guided meditation CDs and guided meditation MP3s.

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Comment from Laura
Time: September 3, 2013, 12:20 pm

Thank you for sharing this information. Helps me a great deal.

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Comment from Susan Tremlett
Time: September 3, 2013, 2:06 pm

Thank you Bodhipaksa, you help me a great deal and often but you won’t be aware of it. Isn’t that great !

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Comment from Roger Hyam
Time: September 3, 2013, 2:11 pm

When I think about this non-duality and compassionate caring I can’t help remembering Thich Nhat Hanh’s classic right / left hand talk. Here is a very low quality clip from Youtube.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FoVuPTqj7gk

It always makes me smile and illustrates the point so well

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Comment from Patricia Hughes
Time: September 3, 2013, 7:43 pm

The mad proofreader strikes again: para 2 has this “Certainly, when I realized just the other day that meditation wasn’t and SHOULD be the central thing in my life, I felt unburdened. ”

Feel free to moderate this nitpicking comment off. I liked the article, thank you.

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Comment from Srini Ramakrishnan
Time: September 4, 2013, 7:57 am

Thank you for sharing it so eloquently. This has been my life quest too, to be very wise so I can help people without doubts.

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Comment from kate poulos
Time: September 4, 2013, 9:02 am

Bodhipaksa, thank you for this post. I appreciate your candidness about your realization that meditation is a support of your values. And how that has eased you from some needless guilt. Nice change of perspective. Your story helps me because I feel like I impose similar expectations of myself and it causes suffering. I will think about what you wrote today. I like the analogy of brushing your teeth.

I jut got back from a trip to France and by observing how a different group of people approach their lives, I am better able to see mine. Yesterday I journaled about what was important to me–I was trying to figure out how to maintain better focus, instead of getting caught in the daily traps that distract me from being true to my values (e.g. getting upset with my job, boss, petty interactions with people-husband included; not keeping good boundaries). Something in this post resonates with what is on my mind–I still need to distill these thoughts, and your post comes at a very good time to help me do just that. Thank you for being a teacher.

Have you ever considered writing your story as a book? Or maybe you already have and I don’t know it. What was your life like growing up? What sort of view did you have of your world as a young person? How did you come to the path that you are on now? Who influence you? etc. How did you become who you are today–I guess they call that a memoir. I would be interested in reading it.

thanks again

Thank you for your commitment,

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: September 4, 2013, 9:16 pm

Thanks!

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: September 4, 2013, 9:17 pm

Yes, it’s hilarious. I love the absurdity of the left hand getting revenge on the right hand. Beautifully done.

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: September 4, 2013, 9:17 pm

Well, I know it now :)

Thank you for your kind words.

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: September 4, 2013, 9:21 pm

Hi, Kate.

Oh, I don’t think my story’s terribly remarkable or that interesting — at least not to many people :)

Maybe when I’ve run out of things to say about meditation!

All the best with your reflections.
Bodhipaksa

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Comment from Eileen Cain
Time: September 7, 2013, 1:56 am

Thank you for sharing your thoughts here, Bhodipaksa. It’s very insightful and helpful.

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