I sympathize.

My best advice would be to develop more self-compassion. You’re suffering during these bouts of anger and negativity, but our usual response to this, when we’re not blaming others, is to feel disappointed in ourselves, to blame ourselves.

Right now, call to mind something you feel resentful about. Be mindful as you let the resentment enter your mind. Now become aware of where the suffering connected with this resentment is located in the body. It may be in the gut, it may be in the heart, it may be elsewhere. Now recognize that suffering is present, and accept it. Allow it to be there. It’s natural to suffer, and it’s not a sign we’ve failed. It’s just a sign we’re alive.

Treat the suffering as if it was a dear friend who was in distress, and who had turned up on your doorstep. What would you ideally do? Cheer him up? Turn him away? Tell him to snap out of it? I suspect the best thing we can do is to mindfully be with the suffering friend until he’s ready to tell us what’s going on. Probably just knowing that he has a friend who is empathetic will reduce his pain by 90%.

Having accepted your suffering, send it lovingkindness. Bear the suffering tenderly in mind as you repeat, “May you be well; may you be happy; may you be free from suffering.” Don’t expect anything to happen. Just empathetically and compassionately accept your pain and wish it well.

Almost every time, doing this allows me to break out of a reactive cycle, and to feel whole again. It often allows me to move on, so that I can turn my compassion outward, toward others.

A Ka Sa Ma Ra Tsa
Sa Ta Ra Ra Sa
Ma Ra Ya PHAT!!!

It rolls along fairly plainly until you get to PHAt which should be explosively pronounced.

I’d say try this one a few times a day for at least a week or so. Meanwhile keep up with saying his mantra the rest of the day. It is always best to have your Guru pronounce this for you so that you can get the intonation and say it like he does.

Good luck with your circumstances.

I’m not very sure what you mean by “round sounds,” or exactly what you’re trying to represent with your phonetic representations. I studied Pali, which is not quite the same as Sanskrit, I know, but close enough, for two years at university, so I’m reasonably confident in my pronunciations. Of course I don’t pronounce everything perfectly, and sometimes I slip up.

The “v” in vajra is pronounced about half-way between a standard English “w” and a standard English “v” (I do not do a good job of getting my V’s right).

Both A’s resemble the vowel in the English word “cut.”

The “j” is hard, as in “judge,” although Americans wrongly tend to make it soft, as in French “je.”

Could you be a bit more specific about which bit you think might be wrong?

I have to say, though, that Tibetans have a mania for making numerical correspondences, so that the six syllables of Om Mani Padme Hum are seen as corresponding to the six realms on the wheel of life, etc. I wouldn’t therefore take the Dalai Lama’s view on Om/Aum too seriously.

According to his holiness the Dalai Lama in Kindness, Clarity and Insight from Jeffrey Hopkins