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Odd experiences in meditation

Abstract Buddha Face BackgroundI get a lot of people writing and asking about unusual experiences they’ve had, often on a consistent basis, in meditation. Sometimes they’re worried, and sometimes I think they’re hoping that these are signs that they’re enlightened, or close to it, or that they have meditation superpowers. Those hopes and fears are quite understandable.

Here’s a selection of some of the things people have described. I’ve put them into groups, and I’ll discuss each type separately. I’ll say upfront, though, that I can never be 100% confident I’ve categorized these experiences correctly. After all I’m having to interpret other people’s experiences, often from descriptions that are unclear.

Swirling lights, etc.

  • During my sit I saw a bright white/yellow circle shape flash of light in between my eyebrows (closed eye meditation). The light came rushing at me and filled my vision then vanished. While very interesting, it actually freaked me out a bit.
  • I’ve had noises so loud in one ear they made me jump, lights, weird visual things, feelings of floating or expanding or shrinking – just every now and then.
  • While i meditate in complete darkness i notice swirling of lights. The longer or deeper the meditation the color changes. I noticed it would go from a red, to orange, up to indigo.
  • When I feel Im getting deep I can see bright purple colors swirling about. Ive tried for a long time to find out if there is a meaning to this.
  • I have had a recurrent experience during meditation. These involve being completely absorbed by an intense yellow vibrating light, qualitatively ecstatic or electric.
  • i meditate in the dark. when i open my eyes and i look at my hands i can see like smoke coming out at the tip of my fingers.it look like when you get out of a really hot bath and you got steam on your skin
  • I have experienced a similar meditation twice where I am going deep…seeing stars/universes… colors…then silence…and stillness (void?) and then I am aware of a medallion that looks like it is made of stone with low and high relief with a face on it.

The swirling lights are quite common, especially in people who are relatively new to meditation, and sometimes when people do more meditation than usual. The term I was taught for these is a “samāpatti.” This term is not used in the way it is in Theravadin Buddhism, and I believe it comes from a Chinese Chan tradition. Anyway, the name doesn’t matter too much.

These experiences tend to arise when people are starting to get a bit more concentrated and they are thinking less. They’re nothing to worry about. You’re not going crazy if you see swirling lights. They’re also nothing to get excited about either. No, you’re not on the verge of enlightenment.

What I think is going on is that there’s a kind of dreamy state of mind combined with mild sensory deprivation. People in sensory deprivation tanks tend to have similar experiences. So what’s probably happening here is that the mind is becoming quiet, but it’s not used to being quiet, and it creates these odd sensations. They’re mild hallucinations, in other words — although don’t be alarmed by that word. We all hallucinate every night, when we’re dreaming, and most of us hallucinate during the day as well, when we’re having conversations with other people in our heads. The good thing is that we don’t believe these hallucinations are real.

What to do about these odd sensations? Just note them, and keep going with the practice. See if you can notice the sensations of the body and the breathing more clearly, so that your mind is filled with sensory experience rather than deprived of it.

If you let your mind get absorbed in these sensations it’ll stop you going deeper into meditation.

Symbols and Synesthesia

  • The breath became a shiny reflective surface, a cold metallic grey colour. Then faded after 5 minutes or so.
  • Sometimes it happens that there is a moment during a sit, when the type of experience changes in a way that can be hard to describe (but I’ll try anyway). It’s as if one sinks a fraction deeper into the seat, and is surrounded by a bubble. There is no desire to finish the sit.
  • Today, and I have noticed on previous occasions, when the allotted time for meditation has expired, I sometimes get “stuck”, in a nice way. I feel the urge to move, but it passes just like an urge to itch. Eventually, I “decide” that it is time to move on. But it has a different quality to it than the urge that comes from a timer.
  • Becoming aware of the continuity of the breath created an infinity symbol for me to flow along, never ending. … I feel like my whole body is breathing.
  • I reach a certain point where it feels like I’m acutely aware of my body while being outside of it, like I’m watching it from physically far away.
  • After about 10 minutes or so I flowed into self metta and when the gong rang I felt/saw golden light in and around me.
  • [I saw] some teal and purple circular coloring that I think has to do with retinal pressure. It responds to my movements, mostly breathing and pulse, generally as shrinking concentric blobs alternating between the two colors … it lets me know that I’ve found a good relaxed alertness balance and that my focus is refined enough to notice it.

Some of these might sound similar to the samāpattis above (and in fact it can be hard to know what’s going on in someone else’s experience) but I think these are all what we call nimittas. The word nimitta means “sign” or “hint” and these experiences are all signs that we’re getting deeper into meditation. In contrast to samāpattis, you should pay attention to these sensations, because they’ll take you deeper into meditation. They’re “signs” in the same way that a glimmer of light in a dark cave is a sign showing you where the exit is; more toward the glimmer of light and it takes you closer to the exit, which in the case of meditation is jhāna, or absorption. The Buddha actually described jhāna as the “escape from a confined space.”

In some of these cases it’s not hard to see that the nimitta is connected with the object of the meditation, or some other positive quality that’s emerging in the meditation. For example a feeling of love is perceived as a golden light, or stillness is perceived as a sinking into the seat or as an inability to move. The continuous flow of the breathing is perceived as a visual or tactile infinity symbol.

These experiences seem to be to be similar to synesthesia. Synesthesia is a state where sensory information in one form is perceived in another. A common type is where people sense words of numbers as having colors attached to them. Estimates of the incidence of synesthesia vary from 1 in 23 to 1 in 2,000 (thanks, Wikipedia). I think many of us have weak synesthetic tendencies, but that the synesthetic signals, being weak, are drowned out by other, stronger experiences (thoughts, feelings, etc.). It’s only when we’re still, and the mind is calm, that these experiences emerge.

Synesthetic nimittas are useful because they are a form of feedback. Paying more attention to a subtle synesthetic signal that arises in our experience as the mind is calming encourages the mind to become even calmer, and so the synesthetic signal becomes stronger. It’s like walking toward the glimmer of light in the cave, and seeing it get brighter.

Sometimes nimittas can take the form of visual symbols. Unlike the swirling lights they’re stable and very, very clear. They can seem more vivid than your experience of the outside world.

So pay attention to nimittas (and learn to distinguish them from samāpattis).

One last thing: People who are prone to having samāpattis when they first take up meditation are also prone to experiencing vivid nimittas once their meditation is a bit more established.

Distorted Body Sensations

  • 26 minute sit. Feeling of extreme spaciousness in the beginning and like my hands were infinitely small.
  • Notable sensations: being very small and yet infinite, as if pulled 35 degrees up to the right 4 feet away.
  • I had that strange sensation of body distortion again. This time, it felt as if my legs were huge and the rest of my body very small. I got a very funny image of what I looked like according to my distorted perception. Then the sensation faded after a few minutes and I moved on to Metta Bhavana.
  • I don’t know how long I sat, but it was very peaceful and I felt myself expand a little beyond my normal sense of where my body boundaries are. At a certain point my hands and lips felt like they were growing very fat, which was interesting to observe (for example the thought really crossed my mind, unconvincingly, that maybe my lips really were swelling up).
  • I have had the “swelling sensation” in my hands before during meditation and I always find it fascinating. It feels very real, like my body is expanding beyond itself and sometimes I feel tempted to open my eyes and double check.
  • A few years ago when I was first learning to meditate I had an a experience doing mindfulness of breathing where I felt my legs begin to melt. It totally freaked me out causing me to open my eyes and stop the meditation. When I did that, the feeling immediately stopped and I’ve never had anything like that since.

These are also nimittas, but I’ve singled them out because I think they arise a bit differently. Mostly these involve a loss of the normal boundaries of the body. This might actually involve the loss of perceptual “filters.” Some parts of the body, like the hands and lips, have vastly more nerve endings than other body parts. In fact if your sense of how big various body parts are was proportional to the amount of sensory information being received in the brain from each part you’d feel like your body was like this:


Cortical homunculus by stormthor on deviantART

Which is pretty much how the body can feel sometimes in meditation. Why don’t we feel that the hands and lips are huge all the time? I think it’s because there’s a “correction filter” in the brain that “scales” body parts and makes the internal feeling of the body correspond more closely to the external visual appearance that we see. In meditation it seems that these filters are dropped, and we experience the body more as it is. And so the lips and hands feel large, for example.

Another (possibly related) mechanism is that there is a part of the brain (the parietal lobes) that keep track of the spatial orientation of the body and of parts of the body relative to each other. It’s been observed by neuroscientists that in some forms of meditation the parietal lobes become less active, and so our perception of the body changes. The nimittas that these changes are associated with don’t lead directly to jhāna, however, but to what are called in the scriptures the “formless spheres” (āyatanas). You’ve probably heard them called the “formless jhānas” or “higher jhānas” but that’s not a term the Buddha used, and they’re distinct experiences from the jhānas proper.

At the point these distorted bodily sensations emerge, you can choose to ignore them and head instead for the jhānas by focusing more intently on the breathing, or you can stick with them and see what happens. (It can take you into some really weird experiences that mess with your sense of self — in a good way!)

I feel prīti, oh, so prīti

  • After the counting was done and Bodhi’s voice was telling me to observe how I felt I noticed that my mind was calm, there were lights around me and my body felt energised so all-in-all it was a positive experience.
  • Perhaps it was my particular state of mind tonight, but I dissolved easily into simply being aware of my breathing. Hands and feet felt quite warm.
  • During the counting of the in-breaths I was getting real rushes of energy to the point where it was a little uncomfortable. At one point ( not sure which stage ) I had the strange sensation of my mind being stuck/jammed.
  • I felt an uncontrollable wave of extremely strong energy. It felt almost good , but in a sense too powerful – pure pleasure.. I tried to just experience it as is but then felt myself getting physically aroused which freaked me out because I was in public with a large group. I then tried to control it and found it very difficult to do so.
  • During the meditation, I feel tingling in my hands and feet. Is this normal?
  • Certainly I’ve felt a tingling sensation that generally starts in my lower spine and spreads over my whole body

We call this energy pīti (Pāli) or prīti (Sanskrit). It’s one of the factors of jhāna, and it’s a good thing! This kind of energy arises when we’re becoming more sensitized to the sensations of the body because the mind is becoming calmer. Also, because the body is relaxing, there’s a release of tension. The effect can be of tingling, or of rushing energy. Sometimes the pīti manifests as warmth. It can be very pleasant. But it can also be a bit much. If the pīti does get too intense, then focus more on the experience of joy, which will almost certainly be present as well.

Pīti is, in a way, another nimitta, but a very specific one.

Sensations of Pressure

  • Another strange sensation I had during today’s meditation was pressure on the eye balls, just like fingers pressing. It was near the start of the meditation and only lasted 30 seconds or so. Another new sensation. In the end I found myself feeling pretty relaxed.
  • I have developed a feeling of pressure in my head–sometimes in my forehead or scalp, sometimes more in my face. At times it is quite strong and unpleasant.
  • I have noticed that I get quite hot, develop damp skin, and recently have felt a pressure in the top of my head, as though something is trying to burst out. It is not painful, just unusual, and not a serious distraction.
  • I have physical sensation in my body, rising pressure in stomach, sometimes shaking, right now I always notice that and let that sensations to pass.
  • i also was feeling 2 points of pressure on my chest (i cant think of another word to describe it)
  • I feel pressure, not pleasurable or painful, just pressure, on the middle of my forehead. I this normal, or is it something I should be worried about?

This is something I’ve never experienced myself. I suspect that these are nimittas, and that the only problem with them is freaking out about them. If you experience these, please relax and be aware that the sensation of pressure is just a sensation like any other. It’s not going to hurt you. I’m told that relaxing the muscles in the head helps, and that the sense of pressure can have a stabilizing effect on your attention, as with any other nimitta.

Comments

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Comment from Traci
Time: May 9, 2014, 2:43 pm

I loved your article because I’ve been meditating solo without any teacher for about 5 years now. I have no one to explain the meaning of all the sensations. The only thing I know is I get my best insights when I’ve reached that point of feeling warm and tingly. I always describe it like how you feel when the alarm goes off in the morning but you are so cozy that you just want to hit snooze. Now I can call it feeling prity!

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Comment from Eduardo
Time: May 10, 2014, 8:22 pm

I have been meditating for 2Y now, and though I had all those experiences written above I experienced a few times Astral travelling, or out body experience which is an amazing experience but unfortunately I cannot do it whenever I want.
And when it happens, it is not easy to keep the state of mind during the process. Any ideas? Thank you.
It is a good website by the way.

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: May 11, 2014, 9:04 am

I’d regard this as being just the same as the samāpatti experiences I described above. It’s not helpful to get caught up in these images and of the feeling of detachment from the body. Don’t attempt to repress, but just let these experiences pass away on their own, and pay more attention to the physical sensations arising in the body.

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Comment from henry
Time: June 17, 2014, 7:27 am

Spiritual magic is so interesting! :D

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Comment from Gail
Time: August 6, 2014, 2:11 pm

Hi, I’ve been meditating and practising mindfulness for just over a year and have had some deeply moving experiences. However, just recently I experienced whole body numbness during an hour long meditation.The sensation was particularly strong in my head. I felt scared and immediately came out of the meditation, and I noticed that I had a cool feeling in my mouth and behind my eyes. In fact, my eyes felt incredibly refreshed. Usually when “something happens” during meditation, I feel great peace, or else a feeling of a wiser, loving presence turning inside me, though not separating. Any ideas? Thanks

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: August 29, 2014, 12:30 pm

Hi, Gail.

I’m never sure what people mean when they talk about the body being numb in meditation. When I experience numbness in the body, for example when my foot falls asleep, I know my foot is there but there’s no sensation. But I’ve never experienced anything like that in meditation. However, our experiences aren’t all the same! Is that what you’re describing?

Anyway, your experience doesn’t sound at all bad, and feeling refreshed sounds nice :)

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Comment from Chris
Time: September 4, 2014, 9:27 am

I had a completely different experience during my meditation this morning that I would like to share (and I am very interested in any feedback) – it was very unusual for me.

A little background: meditation for me is typically about calming anxiety or when my mind goes into obsessive-thoughts. It helps me silence all of that and get centered again.

This morning I woke obsessing on multiple things and decided to meditate (and I admit, when it’s 4-5am, this typically helps me go back to sleep) and the weirdest thing happened. This giant ball of energy built up in my core and it exited my body through my head. I have a hard time explaining exactly what it felt like – it was very much a release of something.

I was in pretty deep – probably asleep, truth be told – but as the energy became present in my mind I started to ‘come to’ a little. When it left my body through the top of my head, I was in a fully alert state. My body was still completely relaxed and I could barely move my arms or legs (I was laying down) but I was totally at ease in that moment.

The thing is, I wasn’t meditating to release anything, I was just trying to get my demons to settle down a little. I have mild synesthesia and your description above feels close to what I experienced, but not quite.

My question is, is this something I can achieve again? Can I set out during a meditation and release that much negative energy in one big shot like that again? My meditation has always been very passive. It’s never been about release, it’s been about silence and stillness. This event feels completely different than what I have ever experienced in the past.

Thanks.

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: September 4, 2014, 2:06 pm

Hi, Chris.

This kind of thing happens from time to time. You’re very unlikely to be able to “make” this happen again. For one thing, you’ve no idea how you did this in the first place. That’s because it wasn’t a part of your mind that’s accessible to conscious awareness that released whatever it was that was released. But calmness (silence, stillness) do naturally lead to relaxation and release, so just keep doing what you’ve been doing :)

Something like this may happen again — it just won’t be something that happens because you’ve willed the experience into being.

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Comment from Z
Time: September 7, 2014, 12:09 pm

Now I’m worried that maybe I’m doing something wrong, since I never had these kind of odd experiences. People talk about “energy”, lights and so on. Mine is never this intense,
sometimes I get into this extremely pleasant state, but that’s about it.

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: September 7, 2014, 4:48 pm

There’s nothing wrong with not experiencing these things, Z.

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Comment from jim
Time: September 13, 2014, 9:13 pm

Hello, I would like to comment on my meditation. I sit in an upright chair due to a knee problem, say a prayer first to relax and then go into meditation. Due to meditating for a while I can calm my mind very quickly. My whole body is so relaxed I cant feel my arms or legs and feeling no aches or pain at my age is always a bonus. Some nights I get an itch in silly places which is so distracting it puts me off meditating the kind that twitches your whole body.

I seem to be in a thoughtless state when a different feeling sensation occurs in my eyes and my head starts to pull slightly backwards into the chair and I see a small opening which enlarges and what looks like old rough parcel string waving in front of me but behind that darkness and small star shape lights. The string shape moves away after seconds and I see deep into the universe black, far reaching and little lights shining very far in the distance in every direction. At first this only lasted what seemed a second or two but I am seeing it last longer now. I love to see it. Meditation has helped me greatly to make me more relaxed and has taken the negative approach away from many situations in life.

Thank you. I enjoy reading your web site.

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Comment from Brandon Forsyth
Time: September 25, 2014, 3:09 pm

Hello, I meditated for the first time today, Not sure whether its normal on a first experience, But after about 10 minutes I just got most of the sensations described above, first came like a pressure right in the middle of my forehead, and on my eyes but it was almost a pleasurable pressure, felt really weird! But was amazing experience, I also started to get a tingle sensation all over my body and this happened for quite sometime, also It was just darkness with a white small dot in the distance can anyone explain that? Also the most weird thing about it, was I didnt feel like i was ‘above’ my body, I just felt like I wasnt In it and I was trying to stop the meditation but I just physically couldn’t because I felt like I was being drawn in further.. Probably nothing as it is my first time meditating ever today, but just would like some answers thanks:)

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: September 27, 2014, 10:13 am

Hi, Brandon.

Some people are more prone to these things than others. The main thing I’d emphasize is that you probably have a lot of work to do in order to stay rooted in the physical experience of the body — the actual sensations that are arising. One minute of real mindfulness of those sensations is more spiritually valuable than a months-worth of odd sensations that the mind has conjured up. So keep working on grounding yourself in your present-moment physical experience.

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Comment from Agnieszka
Time: September 28, 2014, 8:44 pm

Great post. Thank you so much for such valuable information. When I meditate sometimes I feel like some energy is pushing me to the side, or my body is twisted. I open my eyes and I am in straight up position. What could that be?

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: September 28, 2014, 10:57 pm

That’s a samapatti, Agnieszka.

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Comment from Leo
Time: October 1, 2014, 2:31 pm

Hello Bodhipaksa,
First of all just wanted to say thumbs up for you, and keep up doing the great job that you are doing.
So as for my reflexion, i just started meditation 1 month ago since there i m being having a mild practice and being reading all sorts of stuff, so i m pretty much a beginner in all of this, so what would be your biggest advice for me?Is it better to meditate in silence or with music?
In the dark or with the light?
And lately i m feeling some shivers, and a small impression between my eyes is it normal?

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: October 1, 2014, 3:36 pm

You’re welcome, Leo. Brief answers only, I’m afraid, since I have to head off: Silence is much better, meditate whether it’s light or dark, and yes that’s completely normal :)

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Comment from Leo
Time: October 4, 2014, 6:41 am

Thank you Bodhipaksa for your answer.
I’m just being struggling which the choosing of my mantra, i still didn’t find the right one for me, the one that i will fully concentrate, any advice about i can put myself in right path to chose it?

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: October 4, 2014, 3:04 pm

If you want to do mantra meditation, then just keep exploring until you find a figure who resonates with you.

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Comment from Sambaran Mitra
Time: October 7, 2014, 9:30 pm

Leo, I feel the same. A pressure between my eyes and some shivers. The shivers are not periodic and in a ten minute meditation-session I may get them 8-10 times. I cannot say whether the shiver goes up or down but ‘shiver’ is the correct term to describe what I feel. I was curious about the feeling and searched in the internet that led me to this post.
It is good to know that I got company.
On a slightly different note, I am writing a blog series on my experiences with meditation @ oshantomon.blogspot.com

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Comment from Sambaran Mitra
Time: October 9, 2014, 12:44 am

@Leo, If you are searching for Mantra, I will recommend that you look into the book called ‘meditation’ by Eknath Easwaran. He has got a repository of sources (from multiple religions including atheism) where one can search for the Mantra or a longer-passage to focus during meditation.

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Comment from Leo
Time: October 9, 2014, 8:06 am

Thank u Sambaran for your advice.
I ll give a look around, because i think is something that is missing me to take meditation to another level.
Out of curiosity what mantra do use?
About the shivers i found out that i have them more when i meditate in dark, should it have some connection?

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Comment from Sambaran Mitra
Time: October 9, 2014, 9:38 pm

@Leo,I do not use any mantra for meditation.
For two years I was trying out passage-meditation suggested by Easwaran. For passage meditation, one is supposed to pick up a longish passage (not a short mantra) for repetition. At that time I had picked up some 25ish shloks (meaning two lined poems) from second chapter of Bhagvadgita.
For me the shivers come irrespective of light or dark. Just now I completed one meditation session. It seemed to me that the shiver came when my level of focus increased. However that is just one off observation. I have still not been able to establish a pattern here.
One curiosity question from my side. What did you mean by next level of meditation?

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Comment from Leo
Time: October 10, 2014, 9:57 am

@Sambaran, when i say take it to next level is just something personal because i still can’t meditate for lots of time(more than 1 hour)is like i loose a bit the patience, and i start thinking..But sometimes i can really focus and have a better experience with it (like the shivers, impression between eyes, eyes also watery) but lately i m not having so much of this experiences like i had before, so in a way i think that a mantra can help in that way to all be focus and to have a meditations session with balance..Maybe i’m wrong but i feel that the true state of meditation or concentration u loose the notion of time and space, so u just be.

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Comment from behnaz
Time: October 13, 2014, 6:35 am

Hi Bodhipaksa,
thanks to you for your great effort here,
things happen to me during my 6 months meditation(closed eye meditation):
-feeling a cool wind entering my left ear slowly :)
-having pain between my eyebrows.
-feeling my hand bending in an unpleasnat way.
-feeling a bit hot.
-seeing an eye. it seems to be my own eye (the left one) looking at me and blinking normally.
-spinning clockwise up to a half circle over and over. i realy love this feeling during meditation but some times this happens even when iam alert and not meditatig specially when i wake up in the morning some times it lasts for 1 hour, this doesnt make me feel good.
i will be very thankful if you give me some explaination and advice specially about the spinnig feeling ive had.

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: October 13, 2014, 10:04 am

I’m sure you’ve read the page above, so which category do you think your experiences fit into, Behnaz?

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Comment from behnaz
Time: October 13, 2014, 11:03 am

hi my friend
yes ive read it. i think “distorted body sensation” is matched with my hand. and “priti” matched with spinig??? im not sure
just let me know if i shall ignore the spining or focus on it? im spining right now while im typing to you :)) lol

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: October 13, 2014, 9:38 pm

The spinning sounds like a samapatti (in the sense I’ve used it here). It’s not suggestive of calmness or stillness, and it’s not going to help you get deeper into meditation. I’d suggest just noticing when it arises, but making more of an effort to be aware of the parts of the body that are making firm contact with the floor, your seat, etc. See if that brings a bit more stability…

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Comment from behnaz
Time: October 14, 2014, 2:43 am

I got the point :)
I’ll work on controling it. Its good to have a leader availabe like you.
thank you Bodhipaksa

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Comment from Jeff
Time: October 24, 2014, 1:33 am

Bodhipaksa,

Occasionally I experience something very strange after meditating.

I can’t find any information on it anywhere.

The experience is difficult to articulate and I’m not sure if my interpretation of what I’m perceiving is accurate.

But occasionally it seems like the part or parts of my brain that assign meaning, order and familiarity to my perceptions are turned off.

It feels like my subjective filter is momentarily turned off and I’m no longer projecting my conditioned associations and feelings of order, meaning and familiarity onto the world.

The experience is usually subtle but I can focus on it and make it more intense.

It’s an extremely odd experience.

Have you ever heard of anything like this before?

Thanks!

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: October 24, 2014, 10:13 am

Hi, Jeff.

The terms you use to describe these experiences remind me of experiences that I take to be of the formless spheres, or “ayatanas” — usually people call these the “formless jhanas” although the Buddha never called them that.

In the formless spheres it’s possible to lose the sense of “things” to lose their discreteness. Our normal sense of spatial orientation and separation is lost. Even the sense of the body having a form may disappear.

Does this sound similar to what you’re experiencing? If so, it’s quite normal (although not exactly common).

I’m curious what kind of meditation you’re doing.

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Comment from Jeff
Time: October 24, 2014, 11:17 am

Bodhipaksa,

Thank you very much for your feedback.

It does feel like I’m losing the sense of “things.”

It feels like I’m seeing things for the first time.

For instance if I look at a door it feels like I’m seeing a door as if I’ve never seen a door before.

All of my memories and things I associate with doors don’t automatically come up like they normally do.

The same applies to the rest of my senses.

But intellectually I still understand it’s a door and can draw all of those memories into my awareness.

I’m open to the idea that this is not caused by meditation, but it seems to happen more often after meditating.

Over the past 3 years or so I’ve switched back and forth between meditating with a mantra and allowing things to come into my awareness and then returning to my breath.

I’ve meditated on and off with a mantra over the years before that.

I first remember having this experience a very long time ago.

I was contemplating how unusual the human condition is and how everyday life seems so normal, but it only seems that way when viewed through a subjective filter.

Doors seem ordinary but it’s only because I’ve seen them so many times.

If I just came into existence right now everything would seem extremely odd and new.

I was contemplating those things and brought out that experience.

Thank you again for your feedback and for all of your content and work on this website.

Jeff

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Comment from Map
Time: October 27, 2014, 5:38 pm

I have had an experience where i had so sense of my body or anything else physically. I was only aware of my breathing and a yellow core in my chest. However, the dominant experience was that of a huge bubble of peace and clarity of nothing. I did hear noises again with clarity that i have never before experienced. This ball of nothingness seemed to last sbout 10 minutes. Immediatly before this happened i was in great physical pain (a back injury) abd then no pain or any sense of any part of my body.

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Comment from Timy
Time: October 31, 2014, 5:02 pm

Hi there.Please tell me.Does meditation use demonic powers? i practice meditation about 2-3y and i felt some very strange things,just yesterday night i was meditating ,and after 24 minutes i pronounced “innerpeace”and a very bright light camed a over my body and my eyes were compeltely blinded of that light(i was with my eyes closed)and then my hands and my feet started paralysing.after 10 minutes i counted to 5 and said STOP!.then i could wake up and i was feeling strange.and then when i was trying to sleep i heard someone movin in my bed.i turned around:noone was there.i was freaked out…and then after 10minutes i heard something who inhaled air and then exhaled on my back on the head.i was so freaked out that i couldnt sleep all night.i think this meditation have a strange demonic shits going outin secret….

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: October 31, 2014, 7:52 pm

Hi, Timy.

No, meditation doesn’t involve demonic powers. I don’t believe in demons. The sense of peace and light you experienced is simply what we call “jhana” (or “dhyana” in Sanskrit), which is a kind of “flow” state where we’re happily absorbed in the arising of our own experience.

The sensations you experienced afterward (hearing breathing, or hearing someone in your bed) were just dream-imagery coming into your mind while you were awake. It’s called “hypnogogia,” and it’s a well known effect. It’s quite likely that the pleasant experience you had triggered this off, but I’m pretty sure it won’t be a regular occurrence. It’s quite common for someone to experience fear or doubt after a good meditation. It’s as if something inside us has been shaken up. Meditation threatens parts of us that don’t want to change, which is something I wrote about recently.

Just keep going with your practice. The jhana experience you had is a good sign.

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Comment from Phil
Time: November 14, 2014, 8:18 pm

New to meditation… Second day, second session.. What I think was in the middle and/or close to the end I had a strange sensation. Before I say this, note that I do not believe in mysticism or anything of the like. I merely and meditating for clarity and peace of mind. Anyways. I meditate laying down, eyes closed… I felt a sensation that seemed as if the floor beneath me ripped from my head to my feet like a small wave of water.. Conceptually, as if the floor became water. It was very brief, gentle, but quick.. It actually startled me and sort of woke me up from an odd mental drift I was having. Anyways.. it was interesting enough to have me googling for an answer lol.. Im chalking it up as a possible electrical impulse through my nervous system. Further exploration should be interesting, but I have no pressure to push anything.. I just go with the flow and allow a free fall. Its relaxing for sure, I do admit.

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: November 14, 2014, 9:26 pm

It sounds rather dream-like Phil. It’s possible that in your “mental drift” you had a little bit of dream consciousness welling up.

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Comment from hussein
Time: December 1, 2014, 6:00 am

Hi everybody. .i dont know why i feel scared when i close my eyes while making maditation! ! I feel like i gonna lose my conscious when suddenly think if im breathing or i forget to breath! ! Please help me by email..Regards

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: December 1, 2014, 10:19 am

Hi, Hussein.

I’m afraid I can’t reply by email. I don’t know why you experience fear when you meditate, but there’s no need to be afraid of fear. It’s just another sensation. What I’d suggest is that you observe the sensations of the fear that are arising. Notice where it’s situated in the body, what its texture is, how it changes moment by moment. And above all, don’t be afraid of it.

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Comment from Sanjeeta
Time: December 3, 2014, 8:45 am

Hey, I’ve been meditating on and off for 2 months now and I feel this weird urge to sway and trace shapes in the air with my hands. Also I feel pain in the part
where my eye brows joint. I try not to concentrate there but I see this bright dot like thing and whenever I try to focus on it, it pains.

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Comment from Andreas
Time: December 4, 2014, 2:32 pm

The effects of meditation has come to me quickly, I helped cure my lack of sleep and thanks to it I sleep well at night now. However there was one early morning when I was meditating, where I could literally feel… My mind expanding.

It’s hard to explain, but it’s as if your mouth is being stuffed with way too much food or a balloon that keeps growing.I could see white images with black lines, and my head was feeling pressured lightly at the same time. It did not hurt luckily, but after about 20 minutes, it stopped, oddly during that specific time I imagined… Chewing it? I could even imagine how it tasted, and as I did it all faded, I was extremely calm and happy afterwards, and my day felt so much brighter.

I don’t necesarrily believe it has anything to do with “enlightenment” or whatever, although I’ve never experienced something like this before, has anyone else experienced something simular and has a more clear answer on it?

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: December 10, 2014, 10:22 am

Sorry for the delayed reply, Andreas. I got a bit behind with the comments. I’d say that your experience is a samapatti. In other words it’s not in itself significant, and is a kind of mental “noise,” but it’s the kind of thing that happens as the mind is starting to get a bit quieter. Just see if you can stay more grounded in an awareness of actual physical sensations, rather than getting caught up in the stuff coming from your mind.

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Comment from Marina
Time: December 15, 2014, 5:46 am

Hello! First of all, I want to say that I really like your blog and your explanations are really comforting for me. I have a question, I am really pretty scared right now. I’ve been doing mindful meditation for about two weeks. And I felt great. I usually did it early in the morning, but when mornings became too loud and chaotic I started meditating right before I go to sleep. Last night I did it at midnight and it lasted for about 10-12 minutes. I wasn’t actually concentrating on my breathing all the time, but on energy flowing in my palms and I was imagining my aura being all gold, red and shiny… But as soon as I opened my eyes I felt dizzy and nauseous. And now, almost 12 hours later, I still feel that sensations. Could you please tell me what’s going on? What have I done? Thanks a lot!
Please, excuse my English.

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: December 15, 2014, 10:55 am

Hi, Marina.

I don’t think there’s anything to worry about. You got caught up in paying attention to these slightly trippy images and sensations, which isn’t terribly helpful as far as our meditation practice goes, but it can’t do any actual harm. Nausea can persist for a while (I was once seasick for two days after taking a ferry in bad weather) but the discomfort will pass in time. In the meantime, just accept that it’s OK to feel these sensations, and perhaps cultivate a bit of self-metta.

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Comment from wendy
Time: December 17, 2014, 8:21 pm

I have to disagree about the lights being an hallucination. I say this because I will close my eyes during a bathroom break at work and I see them. I also see them going to sleep and upon waking. Also, I can open my eyes and still see them if there is a white background. And the colors always do the same pattern. 1st a green ball, sometimes a red background, then purple. Then purple does the lava lamp and a yellowish \green light appears. Also see eletric sparks and if I am really relaxed, I see visions such as the clouds, earth, etc. But 9 times out of 10 when I close my eyes even in public, they are there and I
am not being deprived of sensory activities.

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Comment from Champika
Time: December 18, 2014, 1:37 am

Dear Bodhipaksa, I was searching all over the internet when i came across your blogs about meditation experiences. I am so very thankful. Like many here i too have been meditating without a teacher for about 3 years now. Your comments are so very helpful in untangling some of the confusion that arises in my practice. I just wanted to say THANK YOU! You have devoted so much time to help us understand the path. May this Damma Dana take you all the way to Nibbana!

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: December 18, 2014, 11:47 am

Thank you, Champika.

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Comment from Bodhipaksa
Time: December 18, 2014, 11:56 am

Hi, Wendy.

The fact that you see such images all the time doesn’t mean that they’re no hallucinations :)

But many of the specific images you’re discussing — visible against a light background — sound like nothing more than negative afterimages, caused by the eye having been exposed to an image, especially a bright one, causing exhaustion of the retina’s photopigments.

This isn’t a factor in the common “swirling lights” people commonly see in meditation, because the eyes are closed for a prolonged period before the phenomenon appears.

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