“This Is Getting Old,” by Susan Moon

This is getting old, by Susan MoonSusan Moon is one of Buddhism’s funniest writers. In this new book, Bodhipaksa finds, she’s also one of Buddhism’s most honest, moving, and beautiful writers.

Title: This is Getting Old
Author: Susan Moon
Publisher: Shambhala
ISBN: 978-1-59030-776-2
Available from: Shambhala and Amazon.com.

My first encounter with Susan Moon’s writings was The Life and Letters of Tofu Roshi, which fondly parodied the language, idiom, and culture of the Zen tradition in which Moon practices. It’s the best Buddhist humor writing I’ve come across. That was in 1980, which is 30 years ago, now. That’s a long time. Realizing that makes me feel old, which is appropriate since Moon’s latest book is subtitled “Zen Thoughts of Aging With Humor and Dignity.”

This is a book about aging, but it’s not at all depressing. Susan Moon is a very funny lady. She has a chapter about her family’s history of retinal detachment that includes the following line about contact lenses: “They required at least as much daily care as a small pet–a canary or hamster–without providing any companionship.” I can imagine those words coming from the lips of David Sedaris. Even the title of the book is a lovely, playful double-entendre. This is aging. This is what getting old’s like. And it’s getting old. I especially loved the opening to the final chapter, “This Vast Life”:

“Every morning, I vow to be grateful for the precious gift of human birth. It’s a big gift, and it includes a lot of stuff I never particularly wanted for my birthday. Some of the things in the package I wish I could exchange for a different size or color.”

Moon herself would say she’s a very funny “old lady,” although I don’t tend to think of late-60s as being old these days. Still, she’s 30 years older than when she wrote Tofu Roshi, and she describes in meticulous detail the kinds of changes that have taken place in her body and mind since then — hair graying, bones thinning, memory failing — and that’s a lot to deal with. Moon has almost two decades on me, but I’m already starting to experience my body as aging. From that point of view, This Is Getting Old is a good reminder, to people who aren’t yet old, of what’s in store for them.

The Buddha said that in his youth he was “intoxicated with youth,” and don’t we all, in our younger days, see old age as something that will never happen to us — not because we plan to die young, but because we think of old age as a personality defect, or we think of elderly people as having always been that way. Perhaps Moon’s book will find itself mainly in the hands of “boomers,” but that would be a shame. Anyone interested in Buddhism, whose key teaching is impermanence, would appreciate this up-close portrait of what’s in store.

This Is Getting Old is a collection of essays on different topics more or less related to aging. Mostly the stories focus on Moon herself, but there’s a particularly moving chapter (“The Breathing Tube”) about her mother’s car accident, and her death after three undignified weeks in hospital. There’s a coda to that story in a a later chapter (“Talking to My Dead Mother”) in which we learn that Moon had just finished the final edits to a book her mother had written–only three weeks before the crash. Moon’s mother never got to see her own book in print. That’s painful to hear, but it reminds us that death is like that — it doesn’t wait until you’ve wrapped everything up before it takes you away.

There’s a chapter about depression called “I Wasn’t My Self,” which initially struck me as being rather tangential to the theme of aging. Depression, after all, can strike at any age, and Moon was far from elderly in the several years she dipped in and out of that experience. But in retrospect it’s an essential chapter. This Is Getting Old is pervaded by the theme not just of aging, but of loneliness. In fact, of the two, loneliness may be the more dominant, since much of the content is about what it’s like to no longer be desirable, to know that you may never have sex again (and, more importantly, not to have someone with whom you can have sex), what it’s like to end a relationship and have the thought “I’ll die alone” taunt you day after day. Moon’s depression seems to have been her strongest experience of the loneliness that still haunts her in her 60s.

This Is Getting Old is an aubiographical book. I say this just to be clear that it’s not a series of reflections on aging treated as an impersonal phenomenon. Moon shows us aging rather than tells us about it, and she shows us in a breathtakingly honest way. She’s very open about the pain she’s experienced at various times in her life. And she never seems nasty, even when she’s talking about people giving her a hard time, like her mother driving her mad with disparaging comments about her hair. And, as I mentioned, she’s very, very funny. I found that I liked her more and more as the book unfolded.

I’ve just finished a book on the six element practice, which teaches us about impermanence and not-self, and I wish I’d had the opportunity to read Moon’s beek earlier. She has some beautiful passages on the elements:

“There’s no empty space. The air is fluid, making room for us, so that each of us inhabits a nook that is exactly our size and shape. The air kindly moves with us when we move … We’re all connected, molecule to molecule. I’m held by everything that’s not me.”

You’ll notice that Moon writes beautifully.

This Is Getting Old is beautiful, funny, warm, honest, and existential — what’s not to love?

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11 Comments. Leave new

  • Oh, I am looking forward to this book. You’ve given a very enticing taste here – thank you

  • Caitriona Reed
    March 25, 2010 3:00 pm

    what a great review! Thanks. Also if you haven’t also experienced Susan Moon as a teacher of creative writing please do so. Whether you consider yourself a writer or not. This is short notice for this year (tomorrow) but catch her when you can. She is a brilliant teacher of he creative process. http://www.manzanitavillage.org or more directly – https://bit.ly/cm2ldp

  • I read the book and loved it. As a long time meditator who is about Susan Moon’s age, the book hit home a number of times. I very much appreciated author’s mix of honesty, candor and humor.

    Question: What is the title of her mother, Alice’s, book?

  • I have just finished Susan’s book. Yes, there were funny lines. I was hoping to read a book by a mature balanced person about aging, instead I read a teenager’s diary. susan seems indicative of American culture’s habit of self obsession and pleasure seeking. I am so bored with all the navel gazing books on the market, and reality shows on TV.

  • I’m in the middle of Susans book “This Is Getting Old” and I had to stop and google her. She writes with an amazing warmth and humor about an uncomfortable (Esp.in this culture) subject. I felt as though I was listening to a friend talk. I saw in her some of the frustration and joys of not always having a significant other that I have also experienced. I’m not done reading this yet, but I know I want to read more of her stuff.

  • Regarding the lack of a significant other, it occurred to me more than once when reading the book that this was the warmest, wittiest, and longest personal ad in the history of the world :)

  • It could very well be taken that way..lol….if so, I hope someone great answers it!

  • Diane Woodman
    April 2, 2012 1:20 pm

    I agree with Debbie above. With all the hype and good comments about how funny Susan is, I was disappointed. The grabbed my attention, but then beginning at the part “Standing in the shade of my own tree” the book seems to slip into a ….somewhat whiney, self-derogatory pity-pot, which Susan picks herself up from by reminiscing about all her girlfriends, past and present; then about her house, and friends again. I was surprised to see her talking once again in the present tense about her mother, on page 85, “having Cheerios together”. I found the flipping around from present to past and back again….unsettling.
    Although I agree that this author is mildly amusing, and yes, very honest in sharing, and a good writer, as a 64-year old woman myself, I was hoping for more maturity, and more Buddhist wisdom, more about how to be a whole person alone (as in ‘all-one’) in this ever-changing realm of humanity we live in, less “teenage diary”.

  • I have not read Susan’s book but I soon will. As we get older we need all the encouragement and support we can get. I surely would never criticize someone who has the ability to write a humorous AND helpful book about “Aging”.
    There is not book of instructions that one can follow with confidence since we are all different, however, to hear someone express the frustration an aged person feels daily is comforting.In my case 83.

    • Even the Buddha didn’t enjoy aging, Dewey. One time he was sitting with his cousin, Ananda, enjoying the warmth of the sun on his aging body, and Ananda said: “It’s amazing, lord. It’s astounding, how the Blessed One’s complexion is no longer so clear & bright; his limbs are flabby & wrinkled; his back, bent forward; there’s a discernible change in his faculties — the faculty of the eye, the faculty of the ear, the faculty of the nose, the faculty of the tongue, the faculty of the body.”

      The Buddha replied: “That’s the way it is, Ananda. When young, one is subject to aging; when healthy, subject to illness; when alive, subject to death. The complexion is no longer so clear & bright; the limbs are flabby & wrinkled; the back, bent forward; there’s a discernible change in the faculties — the faculty of the eye, the faculty of the ear, the faculty of the nose, the faculty of the tongue, the faculty of the body.”

      And then he composed this verse:

      I spit on you, old age
      old age that makes for ugliness.
      The bodily image, so charming,
      is trampled by old age.
      Even those who live to a hundred
      are headed — all — to an end in death,
      which spares no one,
      which tramples all.


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