Unmindfulness Increases Our Suffering
I’m making dinner for my children while they do their homework in the other room. I’m chopping vegetables and putting together a peanut butter sauce and also frying tofu and stirring rice. I’m not a natural at multitasking, and balancing all these tasks is stressful.
One of the kids asks for a drink, and I feel a surge of annoyance. Can’t they see I’m busy?
I heave a sigh and say, rather testily, “I just put the juice back in the fridge! Can’t you just wait two minutes?”
Now my child is upset, and I have yet another thing to take care of. I feel annoyed, but also disappointed with myself for having expressed my irritation. I’ve taken my original stress and added a whole bunch of new sufferings to it!
Mindfulness Leads to Freedom from Suffering
I’m making dinner for my children while they do their homework in the other room. I’m chopping vegetables and putting together a peanut butter sauce and also frying tofu and stirring rice. I’m not a natural at multitasking, and balancing all these tasks is stressful.
But I’ve been training myself to be more mindful of my feelings, and I’m starting to notice the stress building up in my body. I notice that there’s a tense edge to the way I’m thinking. I sense that emotionally I’m being hard on myself, like I’m becoming angry with everything.
In short, I’m aware that I’m suffering. I notice this just as a fact, not as a judgement. It’s normal to suffer. That’s OK. It’s just what happens sometimes.
Letting my awareness drop down into the body, and away from my thoughts, I can sense a painful knot of tension in my midriff. That’s where the suffering part of me is expressing itself. That’s how it’s communicating with the rest of me, trying to get my attention.
I regard this suffering part of me with an inner look of tenderness. It’s the same look I’d have for my children when I feel particularly loving toward them.
I say a few words: “I know this is hard for you. I just want you to know that I love you and want you to be happy.”
All of this takes just a few seconds. All of the time I’m doing this I’m still chopping and stirring.
When one of the kids asks for juice, I tell them, kindly, that I’m in the middle of something, and that it’ll be a minute.
I realize that part of what’s going on is that I’m overwhelmed with tasks at a time when I’m tired and my blood sugar is low. I experience this realization as a relief. It’s not that the world is a horrible place. It’s not that my kids are trying to make my life difficult. It’s not that I’m failing as a cook and as a father. What I’m feeling is just the physiological effect of trying to do a complex task when I’m hungry and tired from working all day. And so I continue cooking, feeling supported and cherished.
The kindness I’m showing myself spills over into the way I’m cooking. I enjoy the actions my body is doing. I enjoy the colors and textures and smells. It affect the way I’m relating to my kids. I behave to them in a way that’s calm and kind. They know I care about them and there’s a loving connection extending from the kitchen to the living-room and back again. A minute or two later, I get them their juice.
The Power of Self-Compassion
Being mindful of our feelings creates a “sacred pause” where we are less likely to respond with habitual volitions like anger, judgement, or blame.
Mindfulness of feelings puts gives us a chance simply to observe what’s happening. It gives us an opportunity to avoid doing things that will just cause more suffering for ourselves and others.
This sacred pause we create in moments of mindfulness not only allows us to temporarily let go of our reactivity. It also allows a space in which more creative responses can arise. It allows us to relate with patience and kindness to the parts of us that are suffering. And it gives us an opportunity to support ourselves, empathetically.
And when we support ourselves with kindness and compassion, we’re more likely to respond to others with those emotions.
The sacred pause gives us a chance to practice wisdom, with the kind of reframing that I illustrated above (recognizing that its normal to suffer, that the irritability is the result of physiological circumstances, rather than being a deep personal failing or a sign that the world is a horrible place).
Four Steps to Self-Compassion
Self-compassion isn’t always easy to practice, but the steps are simple once we’ve remembered to use them.
- Notice that you’re suffering. Let suffering become a trigger for self-awareness.
- Drop the story you’ve been building (“This is so frustrating! Why can’t the kids leave me alone while I’m busy?”)
- Drop down to observe your suffering as felt sensations in the body. These are mainly around the heart, diaphragm, and gut, usually.
- Offer kindness to the part of you that is suffering, by talking to your pain, looking (with your inward eye) at it with loving eyes, and even with a loving and reassuring touch.
To practice these four steps it’s helpful to imagine or remember stressful situations. That gives you a safe space in which to memorize and practice the four steps so that they become second nature. Rehearsing in this way makes it more likely that in the future we’ll spontaneously respond with compassion and kindness to ourselves and others.
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Dear Bodhipaksa, I so appreciate your description of the same scenario played through with mindfulness. Such simple steps as you say. It’s helped me see a story that had somehow got under the radar of self-awareness: something like, if I feel overwhelmed in any way, then this action is something I must avoid. But really it’s simply, an overwhelming feeling can happen under certain conditions, full stop. No story! Then notice the suffering that’s present, and attend to that. So thank you again.
Self-compassion is so powerful!
I’m glad I remembered to go back to this article, or rather, I’m glad I noticed it again through the email scrolling. This space you shared is so familiar to me. I’ve been working with the spirit of 4 steps to an apology, and your article reminds me that the inner lining of an apology really could be the 4 steps to self compassion. 2 sets of 4, not a bad recipe at all!